sleeping child

i have successfully release the inner child of me recently. and that with only a single movie..and yes, you guess it, LION KING!! one of the many disney cartoons that could make me sing all day long, one that could put me in front of the cube box for hours without feeling bored, basically it just makes me feel "WHOA!!" it makes me smile even days after i watch the movie, happy, happy, happy...i can feel the LUUUUURrVVEE and HAAAPPPIINNEESSS even now.

Hakuna Matata!!!

The Usual Misunderstanding

today is the official first day of mid-sem break
yeah right
holidays are never meant to be holidays
tons of work to be completed
objective of the day?
to complete CRR assignment in the first week
and PR assignment in the second week
fuhh! i am going to need alot of energy
can't wait ehh?

watched Shutter Island today
messes with my head
but it was alright
no idea about the rest of the gang
but they seemed bored
lol!
and and
I've never notice the talent in Leonardo Dicaprio till' I watched Blood Diamond
and now this?
no wonder he stays in Hollywood
leason learnt
never judge anyone by the cover

alright
that's the ultimate brief post
gotta' go against time now
til' then
chaoz! ~

Black & White

this is the party that was mentioned earlier

the black and white party in bukit raja

was an awesome party

lots of effort and time put into it

glad that it was a successful one

again i stress, well done girls ;D

one of the deco that night

black and white snaps of pictures

a big thank you to all those that contributed :)

interior deco
love the black and white balloons! :)

avocado and grape...u know what i mean ;)
parrrtttyyy!

the other deco

where guests were asked to leave their comments that night

atmosphere that night

emcee of the night

Ms.Strawberry Ng

lol:D

the moment when we all cheer for the night

and then we diverged a while to this

ting and fen

can u spot jo posing ?

lol

and then the games

everyone was real sport

awesome! ;)

hehehe....the secret camwhore session

first game

hand squeeze curse!

how can a group picture be miss ehh?

another one :)

was a real fun party

of course there will be awkwardness here and there

but hey trials and errors are needed

so no biggie

awesome awesome fantastic marvellous party :)

looking forward to the next one

thank you to all guests for the support

you know who you guys are ;D

and babes, good job done!

til' then chaoz!

P/S: more pictures in facebook!

Shades of Grey

attended a party last night
was a party that we girls planned for about a month
i would rate it as a successful party
don't really care about what others think
because i know that all of them did a great job on it
so babes, well done! :)
pictures are all on facebook
pretty difficult to upload it here since the connection is low
so feel free to browse there

urgh!
i have no idea why
but everything is so messed up for me this week
met an accident 2 days ago
baby JD is injured badly
a flush of guilt over me till' now
and then the whole monash thing
where i mistaken the date and made my peeps go all the way there
just to find out that the event is next week
another flush of guilt
towards justin, jason, haidy, tai chi and my fruity babes
so so sorry about it
still feel bad

and then
i just get so gloomy and moody easily
felt as if everything that i do is not good enough
all the careless mistakes
what have I become?
everything just go wrong just like that
why?
arrgghh! i wish i could say or do something to make it all better again
i have no idea how am i suppose to face them tomorrow
so frusrated and irritated and annoyed by myself

P/S : it does seems like chea wen is the only one who checks my blog these days. thanks wen!! :)

i wish

i became an epic failure today
dissapointment has never gotten me where i am today
at one point today
i wish i could be as cold as ice
at one point today
i wish all my emotions would be erased
at one point today
i wish that all my fear and shyness gets out of my way
at one point today
i wish i couldn't care less about anything at all
but throughout the whole day
all i wanted to do
was just to hide in the corner
and let my tears flow

the hardest thing

for me to do is to pretend everything is alright. acting as if everything is normal and show no emotions at all. at the same time, i refuse to acknowledge everything. i am trying to be as ignorant as possible but guilt haunts me when i do that. i tried avoiding you and not look you into the eye when we speak but all i feel is this bad feeling in me. this guilt that makes me feel so angry at myself for doing that. where are we heading? what are we doing? what are you thinking? you leave me in nothing but confusion and the constant search for answers. you are so manipulative, so unbelievable, so misleading. words that you utter complicates things. actions that you do disturbs the very soul of mine. you make me go through all the excitement of knowing that i am going to see you in another minute or so, then you splashes cold water all over me through your coldness. then you make me go head over heels again with your warmth, shifting your attention to me. what do you want from me?

stop!!

when u know ure gonna fall
pull urself back before its too late