the journey to national heritage...

and we're finally on a roadtrip to malacca

were definitely exhausted after the many nights of assignments

but we couldn't bear to postpone the roadtrip again

so here we are

was definitely a day of foodhunt

chicken rice balls, portugese egg tarts, cheese cake, chendol, pork satay

couldn't ask for more

and all thanks to...

jonker 88...the place we had chendol
justin....tour guide of the day
thanks a bunch si yao wong! ure awesome!~

shen..the endless joker

trips are no laughter without him

chicken rice balls....not to be missed

the field that allow us to play kite...

the many random shots...

catfight~~ lol

see what i mean....

the poking device...

durian chendol...yuummyy one i tell u...

many more random ones

this one gives u the happy vibe :)

the many faces of haidy...

still find this funny...

and more of it...

retard... --"

i hear the shutter clicks all the time...

my models of the day

can u spot the photographer?

justin's moment of silence beside the bollywood tree...

our kite..bruce from a shark's tale...

the bollywood tree that reminds me of the tree rafiki (from lion king) stays in upclose view...

apprently this is jason @ FFK King

see the clouds behind the tree...the one that has a pointy ears

looks like some monster that ultraman would versus

shen posing...

the stall that we had our pork satay

we were suppose to head to port dickson for dinner

ended up we had our dinner in the car

too exhausted..all of us

yerp, that's it

malacca trip was exhausting but fun

thanks a bunch to all of them

i had a great time :)

til'then

chaoz :D

the story so far...

holidays are over
due dates are extended
a breath of fresh air
though the couple of minutes and back to the hectic life once again

got my fresh air last friday
went for a trip to malacca (finally!)
awesome trip
had a real food hunt
will upload pics on that later on

was supposed to have dinner with the old gang
but there was no reply
so had to postponed it
hopefully soon

had a date with sin and others
an assignment date
got them to helped me with my assignment
so THANKS A BUNCH Y'ALL!
reli appreciate all the help yesterday
got lost in the middle of the night
my deepest apology to jo and sin
hope u guys are alrite
wai hoh, hope u had more fun yesterday and not awkwardness

had my dim sum today!
was about to receive the ffk mode from mum
woke up super early
anticipating the many many dim sum dishes
and mum told me that she kinda don't feel like going
was a little disappointed
but oh weelll, i'm already awake so might as well stay awake
and perhaps go get baos and nasi lemak for everyone later

then mum got up
get changed
and we're off to dim sum!
so a little patience does pay off :)

celebrated jenny sis's birthday
korean food and dessert in KTZ ?
could not ask for more
will upload on that too later on

as mentioned
holidays are over
tomorrow ?
not looking forward to
but i ain't gonna whine and complain
so hitting the sack now
til' then
goodnight and chaoz! :)

whispers...

someone whisper to me
are you happy?
and i answered proudly
i am!
how can i not be?
i get what i want
i have all the neccessities i need
so why not?

and it whispers back
are you sure?
and i raise my voice
and said
yes i am!

and then it disappears
silence
and when silence crawls
i start thinking
am i reallllly that happy?
i question myself

i am
i told myself
i am
i convince myself
i am
i persuade myself
really now?

and then all i could hear was the clock ticking
i shut my eyes and hoping to fall asleep
but it wouldn't allow me to
it would go on and on
asking me the question over and over again
forcing an answer out of me
and i already did
so why are you not satisfied?

it would never let go
never did it once
let me go
over and over again
question after questions

if you are
why are your eyes watery?
if you are
why are you so miserable right now?
if you are
why can i sense fear inside of you?
if you are
why do you startle when you speak?

who are you deceiving?
why are you lying to yourself?
speak your mind
speak what you want

and when i try to
i can't
i just couldn't reach my voice
i just couldn't force it out
the next thing i know
i feel nothing but warm drops trickling down my cheeks....

let go...

been real hectic lately
as predicted
nothing can fill up most of my time other than assignments
so there ain't a thing to complain about is there?
i truly believe that as someone grow
you learn alot
and whether you truly learn something or not
well, it kinda depends on you


today i learnt to let go
i learnt that being too stubborn on something can be such a pain in the arse sometimes
letting go of something that you know its pointless holding on
is such a BIG relief
one that you could just go "fuhh!!~ "
and i am glad i did that today


life is treating me well lately
nope
not boasting
but thankful
humility is what my dad taught me
and i am taking that until i am six feet under

but sometimes i am such a brat
guess that's why sis decided to called me that ;)
i am such a strong headed person
that i do not learn to let go of things
things that you will ask me "why hold on?"
thing is
i see and perceive things in a weird manner that sometimes i feel no one understand what's going on in my mind
and being the other rascal that i am
i refuse and choose not to explain to others
this i would go "what's the point?"
ahh welll, what can i do right?
i am who i am

but today
today became a day where i finally step out (a lil') from the usual me
i chose to let go
let it go
and all i feel that moment
huge huge relief

no longer do i need to scratch my head for answers
busting my ass off every day and night to search for an answer
no longer do i need to keep ponder about something
and probably irritate the shit out of some of my peeps
so you...yes you
if you are stubborn as me
sometimes letting go ain't that bad of a choice
try it
slight akwardness at the beginning
but later on
you would just go...FINALLY!!
:)

jaded with superficiality

was walking around campus
when the monograms of LV just pass me by
was heading to class
when the monograms of Gucci just pass me by
was sitting in class
when whispers of Chanel, Prada and LV reached my ears
was about to approach some peeps
and then i walked away
and i DO NOT do this
but that moment
i was glad i did what i did

and then i stood in the middle of nowhere
because all i hear
were conversations of
what's the latest collection of chanel?
was this the special edition from DKNY?
this is liiikkeee so last season, heellloo??
and it goes on and on and on
it's as if like i am standing in an ocean full of people
that were only vaguely visible to my sight
i was so lost
speechless...

now don't get me wrong here
i have no problems with all these brands and all
because personally i do like them too
i totally get the whole attraction to all these merchandise that these brands carry
but aren't we all tooo conscious about it?

since when did all conversations have to revolve only or at least most of the time around brands?
since when did greetings became "oh my Godd!!! this is like the latest one? where did you get it?......" and we have a conversation?
since when did friendships became an object of "heyyy, you carry a designer bag! yeayy! u arree soo coool..let's be friends!"
since when did personality, social status and judgements be determine through labels that you are carrying around?
since when did a person's worth get valued by the names that you carry along?

what happen to the normal conversations that make you understand each other better in a different perspective?
what happen to other conversation that actually make you think and challenge you?
what happen to the mundane (though its mundane) conversations of "hows your day?"

and all we yapp and yapp and yapp about is the latest collection of Chanel
and all we ever think about is "how hard is it to get the special edition bag from Guess?"
aarrgghhH!~
I AM SO JADED!
so so so jaded!!

and i don't think i want to continue on the other superficiality that we are all in right now....

enough...

have you ever been in a situation when you are so taken for granted for that you wish you weren't such a nice person?
have you ever been in a situation when wish all your senses just shut down just like that?
have you ever been in a postition where you just wish that the whole world just give you a break?
have you ever felt so frusrated and annoyed that you don't even know that you are actually annoyed or frusrated?
have you ever felt so numb that you don't even know what you felt during that particular moment?
have you ever been in a position where you just wanna scream but you just can't find your voice?
have you ever wish that there is just this moment of silence where you just don't have to utter a word and there is someone who understand you?
have you ever wish that everyone would just stop judging who you are and expecting you to be who they want you to be?
have you ever ever been where i have been?
ARE YOU EVEN ME AT THE FIRST PLACE?
NO!
SO BACK OFF, AND DON'T JUDGE ME
DON'T PRETEND YOU KNOW ME
DON'T ACT AS IF YOU UNDERSTAND ME
DON'T TRY TO BE ME
DON'T PUT WORDS INTO MY MOUTH
enough is enough...

what do you think?

spammin...

exhaustion has never been so well defined until recently.
anyways, that is another matter that i am too lazy to start on
boredom is where i am right now
so bored that spammin became my temporary entertainment
spammed a couple of peeps' facebook
while i enjoy the amusement that i have through that
lame..i know
can't help it
desperation leads me to nonsense

p/S: i am in search of a drum set...anyone??