10 Things

Hate the way you care
Hate the way you speak
Hate the way you ask
Hate the way you smile
Hate the way you laugh
Hate the way you look
Hate the way you stare
Hate the way you think
Hate the way you are
Hate the fact...
That despite all these hatred
I am actually falling for you...


Emo is the new word that I learnt
At the beginning
It was almost like a norm for everyone
Nowadays, it turn to be an overrated word
And I am one of them who use it to
Now in a state of clear mind
Guess Emo is not my word
Confusion is more of the word
That describes everything
At the moment....

Hyper Day

Getting a brief break from a whole day of work
Decided to update for a while
Been kinda hyper today
Chelle keeps mentioning
"Hyper ahh u?"

No idea of the source of hyperness in me
Maybe it is the sense of relief
But it is definitely the joy and laughter that I get from them everyday
My recent personal message (and motto)
"LIVING LIFE LIKE IT SHOULD BE!"

Had a discussion yesterday
A future plan
All of us in one house
With different profession
Hence the different roles to play
EXCITEMENT all over
Though there were different ideas spilled
But then everyone stick to ONE objective
"LIVE TOGETHER!"

At the moment
Chelle sending me EMO songs (at first)
Then upon request
She change all the songs to HAPPY songs
Correction : All the LUURRVVVEE songs
(my latest lover at the moment...our anniversary? every 18th day of a month)

Still feeling hyper at the moment
So temporarily having a blocked mind
And stucked
No idea how to continue

*random*
Anyways, guess that's it
Will try and update more often

P/S : Feeling like my blog is kinda dead lately...lack of readers perhaps..;)

Chaoz!

Four Days of 'Torture'

People walk in and out
But then some stay
And I mean it

After everything that happened
Questioned myself all the time
Am I really that person that they mentioned

No one really knows what I was thinking or what I was feeling
At that point
Guess I really made a mistake
But then again
Humans are meant for mistakes
Its part and parcel of life

Look through blogs
Sometimes really wonder if the word 'bestfriend' is overrated
Never used the word ever since then

Wonders...
If trust is lost
If faith in friendship is ever there
Let the past be the past
I know
Moved on already

Become super aware
During the four days
Some may say it is a short period of time
But to me
Its four days of lotsa things

No one really knows what I am thinking
Or feeling at time given
Or even at THAT point of time
Guess I become a person of lesser words
As days pass

But the four days that everyone weren't around
Realise the emptiness in me
Stare at my cell
And I don't know what to do
Stare at the clock
Hoping for the time to pass as quickly as possible

Realised that life at the present time
Is full of laughters and fun
Because of them
Realised that life at the moment
Is all filled with colours because of them

Once you read this
You may think that this is yet another drama
Frankly speaking, not that I care or mind
But all of this are real

That four days were a torture to me
Constantly I am finding for entertainment
Or distraction
To spend time

Missed all the night dinners
Missed all the night time hang outs until the breaking of dawn
Missed all the crazy jokes
Missed all the familiar voices in my head

Excitement came when the day arrived
Then a little of bit of dissapointment
But then,
When their messages came
All the familiar voices heard
And when sights of everyone were seen again
Nothing beats the moment of joy
That rushes through

The term adrenaline rush is normally used
But then at the moment
When everyone is back
Adrenaline rush is just a scientific term
No words nor terms can describe anything

Anyways...
While not really in an expressive mood
As the clock stirkes 3 a.m.
Bottomline is

Four days of everyone's abscence
Is a total torture
So yeah...
Super glad and happy
Now that everyone is back

Next post on CIMP (Part 2) will be post up soon
*Sorry Alford, promise I will update soon*

P/S: Sorry for the confusion. Exhaustion steals my attention. ;)
At this point, I am confused by my own words as well, any mistakes done, I apologise.

CIMP Days (Part 1)

Went into Sunway College after high school
Was enrolled in A-Levels for future purpose
One whole week of A-Level
And already I am drained out
Restless all the time
Don't even remember if I really enjoy being there

Finally decided that I NEED to get out
A MUST
(Guess I am just not the type for A-Level)
Remembered the moment when I was waiting outside Mr.Terry's office (Director of CIMP)
Crossed my fingers real hard
Hoping that he will accept me into the programme

You have no idea
How much I longed to be part of the CIMP-ians
Everyday after A-Level classes
I would stand there and hope that I am part of them
In the foyer, I could see everyone talking to each other
No one is a stranger to each other

And....
When Mr.Terry step into his office
I was jumping with joy
After about 15 minutes of patience and serious discussion
On my choice of CIMP
He finally said "YES!!"
At that moment, I wish that I had some rocket-like machine
Under my feet
So that I can fly immediately to Dr.Wong (A-Level's Director)
To get her signature and then...
WAHLAH!!! I AM A CIMP-ian!!!!

But as usual nothing is easy
When it comes to the thing that you longed for
Dr.Wong ended up at home
And that brings me to another of A-Level
Until I get her signature

So yeah, long story cut short
After getting her signature (after numerous trips to her office)
I went for my first class ; Mathematics and Data Management (MDM4U)
Went into the class and sat an empty seat
Which according to Alex...
That is my way of getting close to Nicholas

And there is where the whole chapter of CIMP experience begins....

So went through MDM Class with nothing in my brain
No idea what is going on
And no idea who is who
But thank God
Alex and Nicholas were friendly and nice
To help me out of my BLURNESS

Introducing my very FIRST two friends from CIMP : Nicholas Tan And Alex Phang
*I know...the picture a bit errr.... but that what makes them who they are...LOL*
Anyways, without both of them...I would have still feel akward..so THANKS U GUYS!!!

Next up: My MDM lecturer...MR.Lawrence Welch
Yeah, of course MDM would never be interesting if we don't have the whole soap opera episodes in our class...despite all the mood swings that we go through..he is still the lecturer that wakes us up every morning. (Except for Phang Wai Chen who always fall asleep..LOL and gets away with it) ;p


Then how can u miss the others that adds fun to the class

Nahh, it should be..how can I miss the whole gang that makes the class complete. Mathematics has never been this fun to me because I am a sucker in Maths but in MDM, Mathematics is not that pathetic after all. Hehe... (Spot the two gay ones?)

P/S: There is still one more person that guide me during those CIMP days. ~Chew Lian~ Girl, without you, I don't think I will get use to CIMP-ians that easily. Thank you! Love ya Lotz!;p


And the usual routine??

After MDM classes I would head to Ground floor for my English class

Funny thing is...

Ever since CIMP

I had never felt that English is a tough subject

Until I join the ENG4U gang

It become a whole topsy turvy world for me

My results for Maths was okie, but ENGLISH??

HAhahhaaAHaha..don't wanna mention about it

Nonetheless, ENG4U is where I met all these CrazZiiee, Fun People

Look at the pictures and you will get what I mean

* Kennedy, Jeremy (JellyBean), Vicky & Sonia*

*Waleed : mailto:%5E@#%*%*&%$*&@^*&@^*

*They pose....*

*On the way to the next shot location...*

*As usual; Azim would be busy with his camera...

while the girls would be the one that is 24 hrs ready for the cam*

*speechless* ;p

* Models getting ready for shots...while waiting for TOP MODEl: Mr.Sarno*

TADAAA!!! ENG4U Next Top Model.

To vote, please visit our website- http://www.eng4up2.my/

You wanna be on top??



BAck to Earth, after ENG4U

Would be my HHS4M class (Families class that is...)

Last Sem..most of the girls would go GaGa over this lecturer

The first day of families

Unexpectedly, I had to introduce myself

So I end up having the nickname "Klang Girl" by Brian

*This is the HOT-ON-DEMAND lecturer...Mr.Plouffe*

* The whole Families classmates...Spot the guy with the white specs?? Yeah..his name is

Zaim but preferably Azim...(LOL ;) and his contact no is 017 xxxxxxx



First semester of CIMP is all about meeting new people and learning a lot of new stuff

Though we are all strangers to each other

But there is no akwardness among us

Leaving first sem, I could not wait for 2nd sem to start

More things happened during 2nd sem..

I get to know my first sem friends better

And also lotsa new friends

Wanna know about 2nd Sem??

Stay tune...

Gonna update soon

Chaoz for now!! ~

P/S: Never ReGreT the transfer from A-Levels to CIMP